Finding Missing Pieces

I came across a wonderful book by Joyce Meyer that unlocks the potential of your mind and strengthen the power of your mind. The book is titled BattleField of the mind.

Though I haven't finish reading the book, it's already doing good things in my life. I realised when I think what I think about during my free time, things will start popping out of my mind. Bigger pictures of what I am doing. The things that happened in my life be it good or bad. The times when I strayed away. The times I was talking to the devil instead of God. The times I was feeling very down and sad and had no one to guide me, but God. The times of folly. The times I was carried away by pride. But I never remember a time when God forgotten to give me good things in life and for everything I pray in even how not worthy I think I am.



Sometimes I would question myself things like, WHY ISN'T THERE ANYONE TO GUIDE ME DURING MY DARKEST HOUR?..
But I realised that I was all along kept in a small box, not wanting to come out and see the light.

The situation changed but I haven't.
I keep telling myself that I will not forgive this person. But in fact, that person might have already forgiven me.

I keep telling myself that I do not have enough friends, but all my friends are there for me, and I just cover myself in blanket and say "I DON'T SEE ANYTHING! DON'T DISTURB ME!"

I have done so much wrong things in my life, I did not see what is going on. I did not reflect. I'm stubborn. I am foolish.

BUT...

I am fortunate enough to have a friend that tell me that I am stuck inside this world. At first, I was feeling very down and the devil tell me that all this she is telling me is wrong, but I read the book and the book tell me that I have to try out to prove to myself that what she said is wrong.

Picture this.. I am inside this small little box that I created out of imagination. With friends just at a small hole of the box wanting to stretch out their hands to help me but I just refuse their help..

Now I'm finally out of the small world. Though I know one day, the devil will strike back at me and try to squeeze me inside this small box again.

But I have no fear, because with strong faith in the Lord, everyone will soar like the eagles. Held by Your Love, Your power, Your mercy, Your protection for me.. I will take refuge in You. My hope is in You Lord. Draw me closer to You everyday for I am firm in Your hand. I trust in You. I love you Lord.