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11 April 2008
On this very day, I was feeling very frustrated because I did not pray for 3-4 consecutive days and everytime I wanna pray, something will just tell me not. When I open my bible, I will just mysteriously feel sleepy and fall asleep on the bible. And by the time I wake up, it's morning already and I have to go work.

I just pack my things the next day and go to work with a "Zombie Face". I realised that without prayers, my whole body will feel tired very easily. I begin to ask myself, what is wrong with me, why didn't I pray? I know it must be the works of the devil, but I find myself unable to fight back.

I'm so reluctant to pray myself and I wanted someone to pray for me regarding this and think that it may not be able to workout without me praying for myself.

I carried this emptiness in me throughout the whole week. And hoping that I'd eventually swing myself outta this and the devil would let me off. Times when I am down I will just look at the clock ticking away and wait for the time for me to pack my things and return home. I totally forgotten the importance of prayers.

The devil further torment me, telling me that "God don't love you anymore, you're condemned!!" And in my folly I believe that it's true.

12 April 2008
On Saturday service, I prayed to God that He will strengthen my faith in Him and that Pastor Kong would preach a message that is just meant for me. (Kinda selfish rite.. >.<")

BUT it really happened! God heard me crying for help!

In the context summary of the preaching of the sermon, a message went through my mind and that I have to WAIT for God's presence and to continue praying! I was like "WOW!" God really hear everything and anything. My emptiness was due to not praying. And I make myself very vulnerable to the devil's attacks. As the devil's nickname is called "The son of lies", I actually believe in the lies that he was showering me with. And most terrible of all is that, the devil got patience. he will try all his ways to attack me with doubts and questions which I can never answer and when my mind is in a state of mess, he will commence his attack on me.

When I look back on all my prayers, My prayers were always heard because God has done miracles that no one will believe in my life which I have posted in here. All without my input!

After the Saturday service, I tell myself, I will literally kneel down and tell my Father from Heaven, and I will always put Him first and never last again! I found everything under His feet and I can take refuge under His wings. I will NEVER be alone again.

And not go from faith to doubt and to confusion. I will go from faith to faith. I want to lean on God and let His love fill me in. I'm currently on a 40 days fast. In this 40 days, I will devote all I have into my loving God's hand and I know that through prayers, I will be strengthen in all aspects. I cast all my care upon You. For every decisions I have to make, I will ask God first.

From my previous post, I believe that most of you who have read should know that I'm not very good at remembering things. So I wrote almost every single thing again in order to remember. Especially those bible verses that I feel especially attracted to. I will have to do so again. In this 40 days. I believe that I will need to be more hungry for God's word. Because His words is the key to all the locked doors.

I realised that I have to pray and pray and pray in whatever situation I am in. This message was probably that oldest but to my surprise, I did not take into account for it. I thought prayers is only should be done at night, I never thought that I could pray anywhere I go and in anything I do. Well, I begin to pray and depend on God. I am willing. I want to be able to serve God. Many a times, when emptiness strikes, I will just sit there and 'stone' without thinking that it's the works of the devil and that I can fight back. Now that I'm a Christian, I can fight back with God's words to the devil. One word of wisdom is sufficient to fight over the wimpy devil when used at the right timing.

15 April 2008
In my morning prayer this fine Tuesday morning, I was praying for God to come closer to me. And take me away from this painful world. After prayers, usually I'd straightaway go bathe and be on my way to work. But on this very day, a unspoken voice just ask me to sit down, and I did. Close my eyes and I did. As I close my eyes, a very strong wave of tingling feeling embrace me, I know something is going to happen. And I continue to keep my eyes shut. I saw a man, using His finger, writing to me, "I LOVE YOU" to me.. I was filled with doubts but no one have done that to me before and I feel an unconditioned love filling me, embracing me tightly. Afterwhich, I have tears in my eyes and I said "I LOVE YOU TOO!" I close my eyes again. The same person wrote with fingers "DON'T CRY".

I know from then and there, MIGHTY ONE, You've came, and told me, Li Ziqiang that You love me, WOW! No words could describe this feeling that is inside of me. And I told myself. I really have to share this with someone. As I was typing, my Dearest Heavenly Father is embracing me and I still tell Him the same thing, I love you Father, today, same as yesterday and for the rest of my life.

The devil again came in and tell me, "Blessed are those who have not seen and yet believe" and I replied, my Father told me that "Blessed too are those who have seen Him and believe"

I have more to share. But kinda short of time, Haha.. I will write in my journal and share with all of you soon alright.. Have a nice day ahead. Be a happy person. Life is too short to be sad. So smilex..

No numbers could ever count how many blessings God had shower upon me.

I am a happy man for if I am happy, God will be happy too. No father would want to see their children sad, sounds logical? It is. =D

I will open my "chatterbox" to prayer request. Please fill me in and I will pray for you my dear friends. No matter which part of the world you belong to, I want you to know that God is everywhere and anywhere. He is Great. And all you have to do is to BELIEVE.