Recently, I've been reflecting very much on what I did and I feel terribly sorry for those people who are involved before my life change. I believe up to this point, all I can say is that, I love you dear LORD and THANK YOU for changing me into a brand new person.
As some may have noticed, I used to curse and swear everywhere, everytime, everyday and at anyone, but now, everytime some rubbish wanna come out from my mouth, something will hold me back and tell me not to. I can feel the power that is inside of me and whispering to me every step I have to take telling me what to do and what not to do.
All I have to do is to ASK GOD.
I remember day before yesterday, I was feeling very sad and wanted to breakdown because I cannot feel that God is inside of me, I feel He is walking away from me for some reason I don't know why. I broke down on my kitchen table and ask God, "WHY ARE YOU LEAVING ME NOW! I NEED YOU IN MY LIFE TO GUIDE ME!!! PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME!!!" (Fortunately, my parents did not wake up) I was very desperate for God. Someone just whisper into my ears to open up the book that I just bought titled BUT GOD, by Paster Phil Pringers and miraclously on the first page of the book, I found my answers. 2 powerful words written on the top of the page on my first glance, "ASK GOD..", and I started to pray and ask God to let me feel Him and to forgive me for whatever mistake that I have done that I may not know. Suddenly, I can sense His presence in me again. How wonderful..
As I am a new Christian and know not much about Him, I begin to ask myself, why don't I know how to speak in tougues. I ask God in prayers on the night before and the next day morning, one of my Christian friends come to my table and ask me,
"Do you know how to speak in tougues?" I said, WOW, how do you know???? And I replied "No" and he taught me how to. Another of my friend also called me and ask me the same thing and strange thing is, I did not tell any of them I needed help on this. I thank God for that.
God in me is so POWERFUL!
My family members are all buddhist and I grew up in a buddhist envoirment, I remember my mother always tell me, before you go for exam or anything, pray to the buddha with all your heart and you will do miracles result. But the result, I got back was a pool of red ink. I really wonder what have I done wrong. Many things I pray to the buddha, but haven't He or She see what I've done?.. Was I not faithful enough.. Since young I have been praying but I have yet to receive any blessings.. Or was I not sensitive enough? It was mercy upon your heart that you shower on earth, but why can't I feel it?
Well, I will leave the question open-ended. Those who are viewing my blog right now, touch your hearts and ask yourself, is an answer ever given to you when you ask Buddha any questions? Maybe I can't feel it? Can someone just convince me?
Seeing is believing, I turn to God, from top to toe, from spirit to emotions, from inside to the outside, everything's changed. I am a better man. I know that I am not the best YET but I will be a better man. Nothing change me like the way God change me before.
YOU BOMBED MY WORLD GOD!
I use to walk along the path that people want me to walk. But as I walk with God now, I realised I only need God in me. All my fellows brothers and sisters, remember this.
On those days, the devils tries to destroy us.
On those days, people attack us.
Others try to take advantage of us.
Friends may disappoint us.
Disease may try to kill us.
Enermies rise against us.
THE DIFFERENCE IS that if you have asked CHRIST into your life, He is in you. And His presence is the assurance of a better day, a solved problem and a tranformed situation. He is a God of wonder and NO RESOURCES IS UNAVAILABLE TO HIM!
I end my long-winded-ness liao.. HAVE A BLESSED GOOD FRIDAY!
GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU!
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